Labour and birth story

Friday 26th May, I went into hospital as I was having some reduced movements with my little boy. I had the same thing at 31 weeks so was expecting them to tie me to the machine wait around for about half an hour to be told everything was fine and to go home. However what actually happened is that it was a hot day and my blood pressure was up so they wanted me to stay until it came down, it didn’t. They gave me some pills and said because I was 39+4 that they would be inducing me the next day. My blood pressure went straight back up (in shock) so they decided to induce me then and there.

So after midnight i was admitted on to the ward and given the pessary to get things going and had a sweep….fun times.

At about 4am i woke up in quite a bit of pain as the pessary had actually slipped down. The midwife popped it back into place and i managed to sleep through the night. The next day i was having some contractions so i kept moving all day long. If things don’t go into full-blown labour they only check your cervix after 24 hours and i was determined not to be in any longer than i needed to be, so i was walking up and down the halls and bounced on the exercise balls just to keep things moving along. Like i said i was having mild contractions and then when my husband left me at around 9pm they stopped completely….fun. So into bed i got awaiting my examination at 2am. I set an alarm and when i woke up went off to find someone to see how well i was doing.

I was 3cm dilated and the midwife did another sweep to see if she could get me going at more speed and said as soon as someone was free and a room available I would be going down to the labour ward and have my waters broke!! Terrifying haha! She said it would probably be in the morning so i text Andrew to let him know what was happening and went back to bed to try to get some rest.

At 5am I was woken up by a health care assistant to tell me i was going down stairs now. She had to repeat herself about 3 times as i was still pretty much asleep and in shock i think!

So I gathered my stuff and went with her,  i was worried that i wouldn’t have time to ring Andrew as i wanted him there when they broke my waters but the midwife assured me she wouldnt do anything until he got there. By the time everything was set up and ready to go it was 8am there is a shift change at 8:30 so we all decided that we would wait until the new midwife was there so that i wasnt being examined and then examined again 30 minutes later.

The new midwife Rae couldn’t reach my cervix to feel how dilated i was or to break my waters, i guess for me its a little “longer” in there ha ha. She went out to find someone with longer fingers and returned with a Registrar Ken. He broke my waters in about 3 seconds flat and didn’t hurt a tiny bit. They gave me an hour to see if my contractions started naturally or id have to go on the drip as it appeared my little boy had opened his bowels inside… nice one kid! So the hour came and went and the contractions did start but not of any kind of intensity they were hoping for so i went on the drip. Now up until this point i hadn’t touched any pain relief although they did keep offering me gas and air. About an hour after the drip was put in the contractions started and BOY did THEY. My contractions were in the top of my legs, my hips felt like they were being pulled apart so i very quickly picked up the gas and air nozzle. It is a weird feeling the gas and air, a little bit like your tipsy, i’m not sure it did loads for the pain but it got me through another hour or so… then the contractions got too painful and i wanted something better… so i was given diamorphine…. i was being sick and mooing like a cow although Andrew my hubby said i sounded more like an owl hooting but despite all this i was also quite comfortable, once the contraction stops all the pain disappears… its very strange! I was in labour for about 9 hours in total. Due to the hip contractions and the drip i was strapped to a machine to monitor baby’s heart rate and couldn’t really move.

I remember getting the strangest urge to push although i felt like it was too early…. so i tried to stop myself from pushing but not being able to stop myself. For me it felt like when your retching… like your body just taking over and not being able to stop it. At this point i had been pushing for an unknown amount of time when my little ones heart rate started dipping to the point where the midwife was concerned so she buzzed for back up, as she did alarms started going off everywhere… and two of them had nothing to do with me and everything to do with another 2 women in need of assistance pretty much at the exact same time.

Time became a priority in what felt like 20 seconds the room filled with people running around and moving things and setting things up. I needed emergency assistance, the two other women were taking up the theatres so there was no where for me to go, they turned my room into an emergency theatre, i dont know if it was the panic of the situation or not but the diamorphine started to wear off. A consultant came in and was all dressed ready to intervene, i was going to have a forcept delivery. On my next push he was going to help me get my son out. The pain was incredible, the feeling strange and stomach turning but i didnt care my son needed to be born. The consultant said he needed to cut me to help get Henry out, i didnt care. On the next contraction a midwife pushed on my stomach i pushed with all my might and the consultant dragged my son out by his head.

Henry was placed on me for a few seconds but was quickly taken away and put on the resuscitator. He had a problem with his breathing and a suspected broken clavicle so was rushed down to neonatal where he would be well looked after.

Once my placenta was removed i wasn’t in any pain whats so ever, its all very strange…. but hey i guess that is mother natures reward for putting you through such an ordeal. The consultant started sowing me up and he apologised for being so rough with me but it really was a priority that my son was delivered asap, i didn’t care, i still don’t. Yea when i think back it does sort of make my skin crawl remembering the feeling of it all but it was to save my son… Id do it again tomorrow. The labour itself really wasn’t that bad and i will go into my next pregnancy with no fear of that… the drugs definitely worked! Which in itself must say a lot and give any expecting mother some hope.

 

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My own poetry reviews

wpid-wp-1447377915446.jpgI have been writing poetry for some time now and it’s something I love doing.

Although I have been doing it for years this is the first time I’ve put it out there online.

I have come to the conclusion I cannot hope to get better without fair and just reviews.

If you read my poetry, first of all thank you. I hope you enjoyed it, but also please feel free to tell me why you did or didn’t like it. Only then can I hope to improve.

Thank you very much in advance.

Hjsa

Pregnancy beauty both good and bad!

Dry skin: I suffer from psoriasis on my hands, feet and scalp. Whenever I’m particularly stressed out the stuff on my scalp comes down slightly and goes onto my forehead but never further down than my eyebrows. Luckily I have a fringe so if it gets bad I just wear my fringe down and it’s hidden… Sorted. Being pregnant has had a very strange effect on my skin as the psoriasis I have on my hands and feet has completely cleared up and the stuff which is only very occasionally on my forehead was taking centre stage. I was caught in a tight place… The more stuff I put on my skin to help with the skin condition the worse it seemed to get, which is pretty standard really but still annoying as you can imagine. Once I got into the second half of the second trimester it seemed to clear up so fingers crossed it will stay away for a while.

Hair: My hair feels amazing! This is definitely a great side effect of pregnancy it’s growing like crazy and feels really thick (although I know it will all come out once baby is here). I cant put conditioner on it or it will get greasy in what feels like 2 seconds flat but oh well not exactly a bad thing! Will save me loads of money between now and the little critters arrival!

Nails: Also growing like crazy although they do seem a little brittle but that could be my imagination. With work all day I really am surprised that they last at all!

Bath bombs: Unfortunately I have had to put my bath bomb obsession to bed, at least until May. They have caused a brief encounter with a PH Imbalance that I sure as hell don’t want a repeat of! The doctor said now I’m pregnant I am more likely to get this sort of thing and if I’ve one once I’ll probably get another! 😱

Tummy: On my expanding stomach I have been applying The body shops Coconut body butter, Palmer’s cocoa butter and boots mummy oil spray for stretch marks. I love the smell and consistency of the body butter it’s definitely the one I have been applying the most, I find the cocoa butter too sweet smelling and the oil spray feels disgusting on my skin… 

TTC

I’ve been broody for the last 2 years. But life has been in the way, being sensible gets me down sometimes and luckily I have a very sensible husband who despite my constant cooing over babies and children said over and over again we weren’t quite ready yet, we didn’t have any savings, we lived in a one bedroom apartment in the middle of Manchester, I had just changed jobs, not the ideal time to bring life into the world if you have full control of the situation and I knew he was right so we waited. When our tenancy agreement was coming to an end we knew it was time to move in to a house. Not just to start a family but we had gotten sick of city living and wanted something a bit more in the countryside.

My husband and I started trying to conceive a month after we moved into our beautiful house back in August. We finally had the perfect house in the perfect area and everything just felt right.

We had a house warming party and it was going to be the last time I drank, trying to get pregnant and then hopefully getting pregnant is most definitely a good time to not drink! 

My last cycle started on the 22nd of August 2016. Previous to this I had already started take prenatal vitamins every evening and making sure my diet was “fairly” healthy. I had pretty much read everything I could possibly read on how to get pregnant, when the best time was and the science of it.

I bought ovulation kits and made sure we did the deed…everyday we were supposed to. A few weeks later I started having a few symptoms, my boobs hurt and I had back ache which I have never had before and after a quick Google, turned out to be a pregnancy symptom.. So I did a pregnancy test a full 2 weeks before aunt flo was even due, a negative result was all that could be expected even if I was pregnant with triplets it would still turn up negative. Slightly disappointed but logic kicking in I didn’t stress out too much.

I bought the early result pregnancy test from Tesco that say they can show a positive result as early as 7 days before AF was due and I waited until it was 3 days away. It was about 11pm and I just couldn’t wait… I nervously fumbled with the packaging and went into the bathroom. I set a timer on my phone and just sat on the toilet and waited. I couldn’t decide if there was the faintest pink line in that box or if my eyes were just playing tricks on me… I had to hold it in the light and at an angle…  Hmmm i went into the bedroom and show Andrew my hubby the test. He could also just about see it. 

Google: Pregnancy tests are designed to detect hCG in your wee – because hCG is an early marker of pregnancy. … So, a very faint line nearly always means you’re just a few days pregnant.

I know it’s stupid but I was very very excited… Andrew was trying to keep me level headed after all there is many things that could go wrong. It might be wrong… Wishful thinking, chemical pregnancy, miscarriage the list is what feels endless about what could possibly go wrong. I tried to not get my hopes up. 

The next day I went to work and was sent off to go grab some bits from Tesco. I didn’t need anything from the toiletries Isle but somehow found myself there looking at clearblue tests, early pregnancy detection stated on the front. At £20 for two I put them in my basket and paid for everything. I didn’t even manage to get out of Tesco, I went straight to the loo and did another test. I washed my hands put the test in my bag and walked back to work. Luckily for me I have a very close relationship to everyone I work with so they all knew we were trying to get pregnant so I dug out the test once I’d got to work and again another really faint line. I asked everyone around if they too could see what I could see… I was pregnant. I sent a picture to Andrew he could also see it.

Nervously we waited a week and no period came, I did another clearblue test this one was the digital test with just pregnant and not pregnant no lines to decipher just yes or no. I waited until we were both home did the the test: Pregnant 1-2 weeks, in pregnancy land that actually makes me 4 weeks pregnant. We were over the moon and felt so blessed to get pregnant straight away. Against what many people may think we told close friends and family straight away but kept it quiet to the general public. Everyone was made up told me to relax and enjoy it. 

One thing I am sure everyone has gone through pregnancy will understand is that you can’t relax especially in those first 3 months… Worry is your new best friend!

I know that for many people their journey to pregnancy and children is completely different, I can’t imagine what it would be like to see a negative test over and over. We have been truly blessed and humbled by our experience so far. I can only hope all those people trying out there get their very own positive test very soon.
Hopefully you enjoyed this post there will be follow up stories. About pregnancy and life.

Our trip to Oslo

At the end of January I decided that I would be a very nice and generous wife and booked myself and Andrew a trip to Norway!

We haven’t been away together since our honeymoon 2 years ago so it was definitely needed. Andrew is rather sensible when it comes to money were I’m a little devil may care. As long as I’ve got enough to have a roof over my head and food I don’t mind not having spare cash in the bank, so I had to be a little bit sneaky. We have a joint bank account that both our wages go into so I couldn’t very well start booking flights and hotels and expect Andrew not to notice! Soooo I withdrew bits and pieces of money every day for my “lunch” at work and took a packed lunch. The money Id withdrawn i put into a spare account I have from my student days and he was non the wiser!

Deciding where to go.. On my own jeez I was nervous, Spain, Venice, Iceland… I wanted a memorable trip that wouldn’t cost the earth 🌍

We have been to Venice previously so if we could go somewhat new that would be better and I felt going somewhere cooler would be different, I’d seen loads of holidays on groupon and Wowcher so thought I’d look at Iceland. Unfortunately it was a little more than I wanted to pay so scowering the Internet I found VERY cheap flights to Oslo, another search later I found cheap accommodation in a swanky hotel in the centre of Oslo perfect!

Eek one problem…

It meant Andrew would need the Friday off, how was I going to explain that?! Hmmm well after some quick thinking I came up with a plan! Andrews boss was on Facebook so I asked her directly if she would help me with my plan and she did! She even threw in some of her walking boots for me which I hadn’t even thought about!

Once everything was booked and I’d sorted out a hire car for us during our stay, I broke the news!!

Who wouldn’t love a surprise trip away?? Everything was booked and all he had to worry about was getting some walking boots to fit his size 12 feet!

I will write a more in depth post about Oslo itself tomorrow so please come back a read =)

Here are some of the pictures we took of our trip and it really was amazing! The fjords are beautiful and I couldn’t have asked for a better trip!

If you haven’t been to Oslo and it’s somewhere you would like to go one bit of advice…  Be prepared to buy food from the supermarket as it is massively expensive, we had a look at a few menu’s outside restaurants and meals were easily £20-£30 for basic £10 dishes here in the UK.

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Growing up

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So on Thursday I Start my slimming world journey. My bmi is 29 I’m getting closer and closer to 13 stone and I need to lose atleast 2 stone to be within my healthy weight range. I’ve tried Weight watchers in the past and I found the weekly meeting a great way to keep up motivation but I found the whole points system far too much like hard work. I didn’t want to have to weigh everything out like a mad woman and I also know what I can and can’t eat. It’s going to be a big year this year and I want to get as healthy as possible! I’m moving house, getting a car hopefully a cat and a dog and maybe even start trying for a family but all of this will be much harder to cope with if when I’m lifting and carrying stuff im out of breath and I don’t want to be over the weight I am now once I’ve had a baby. Why is growing up so ridiculous. Not only do you have to get one thing right or as close as can be you have to do the same for everything! I have a lot of admiration for those people that just get on with things with little to no planning, I’m making back up plans for my back up plans. Who doesn’t have a plan z for everything?!
I’m eating healthier now anyway so its not like  eating everything we have in between now and Thursday that’s just when I can get to a meeting. I am going to do a weekly blog/video 📹 about all of this and the step by step journey I’m taking. If anyone wants to do this journey with me id me more than happy! Just send me an email or message me on here!

Hope everyone has a very healthy Tuesday 🙂

Love Helen xx

I am a flake

I am a flake. I am here and there and every where and no where all at once. I have a very short attention span and when I love something I put my everything into it…until I get bored and then I put my heart into something else and then get bored.

Like blogging. I love it, then as soon as it becomes a hassle to do it, I stop. I do it with everything in life apart from actual people which is good. I go from buying everything to buying nothing and wanting to get out of the whole capitalism thing that plagues our every decision. To diet and lose weight to embracing my womanly curves. To wanting to change jobs to loving my job.

I’m a contradiction and a hypocritical loser. The things I genuinely do love I come back to time and time again which is a good sign that’s its not all a complete loss. I am also very pleased that my husband knows I am a flake and can talk some sense into me when I am just about to sign up to some class that I have to pay for in advance or something that requires a commitment that he knows I will never keep. I don’t do it on purpose and most of the time, at the beginning of one of my hair brained idea’s I am truly convinced that this time it will be different.

It’s a bit of a love, hate relationship I have with my flakiness as when I have found something I am truly passionate and I put all of my effort into and then I get bored, get distressed at life and then fall back In love with something else. My dad is exactly the same. The amount of diy projects he has started and given up on. The amount of collections he has started and given up on…

Life is one crazy rollercoaster thing that I still don’t quite understand my place in yet…

Anyway hope you have a great day =)

Love Mrs Flakey xxx

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Love me Beauty

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My latest delivery from love me beauty.

A little underwelming, overall the products in the box were good. I love the lipstick, its in a metal case and it really does feel expensive, the shade is Wild Peony. Its a good shade as i think it will go nicely with all skin tones and a great transitional shade from Summer to Autumn!

The carmex is also another safe thing to add although do we really need two different flavours?

The nailsinc gel like nail polish is rubbish. It looks great when you first put it on, but within a day it begins to chip and i havent been doing anything overly strenuous! I have this nail polish in 3 shades now from various Beauty boxes so its clear Nailsinc are doing some serious PR work or just giving away all their rubbish for free!

I do love subscription boxes and this isnt really typical of what you get in them, i just think maybe they were a little stick for idea’s maybe?

The box including delivery is £14 and i would pay that for the lipstick alone so i guess i got a few freebies!

If any of you get a beauty box let me know which ones or if youve written blog posts about them! I would live to know what other people think of them!

Please hit Like and Follow 🙂
Much Love Helen x

Not so great!

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Hey guys so here is another product review. Again i got this in a beautybox subscription and the idea is awesome…

In reality its awful.

The stuff smells great which is a bonus.

On Superdrugs website:

Zerreau Towel Off Apple Shampoo 180ml
£5.99

Zerreau is a brand new concept in hair washing, allowing you to wash your hair properly but with absolutely no water required. It really cleans effectively, even removing product such as hairspray, wax or gels. Leaving you with soft clean lushious locks! Zerreau is NOT a leave in product and its NOT a dry shampoo either!
Soft clean hair anywhere, on the bus, in a tent, at the office
No water required, removes dirt, odours & product – effectively
Delightful delicate aroma – Apple or Strawberry fragrance
Kind and gentle, designed for long term use(no alcohol or parabens)
Proven demand (established market for our medical brand)
Easy to use (foaming, no drips or mess)
Quality product that’s safe to use (UK manufactured, complies with European Cosmetics Directive).
Wash your hair effectively without water. Ideal Ideal for busy lifestyles, meetings, impromptu dates, gyms, and festivals and camping so you can wake up a bit later and look glamorous and clean before you have even left your tent, feeling sorry for those who got up at 7am and are still queueing for the showers, which are dirty by the time you use them!

In theory great but in reality… it makes my hair feel even worse! Worse than a build up of dry shampoo. Its not greasy as such but but it makes my hair feel really thick (not in a good way) and heavy, it sticks to your head even when you blow dry it to have volume. It just sucks! Stay away at all costs youll be better going greasy for the day!

Please hit Like and Follow 🙂
Much Love Helen x

Reviving review

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I have had the Monuspa Reviving mist for a couple of months now and i absolutely love it!

I got it just before i went on holiday to Spain as the spray was really refreshing and it smells really nice. So when your all hot and bothered and might not be feeling the freshest spritz a little of this onto your face, back of neck and body and it leaves you feeling much better!

It is also great t set your make up, one spritz of this keeps your make up there all day!

The product its self i got from a beauty box subscription and just haven’t managed to tell you guys about how amazing it is! This is a full sized sample and you can pick it up for £11.95.

“The perfect pick-me-up for dull days and stressed skin, to leave you feeling calm, comforted and in control. Created using a blend of zesty essential oils. A blend of zesty essential oils from Lemon and Rosewood to Sandalwood, Petitgrain, Geranium and Clary Sage. This invigorating combination will leave skin feeling deliciously cool and refreshed whilst providing an irresistible fragrance to tantalise the senses.” – Glossybox

Here is the website so you can buy your own!